Anger Disappointment...

Well... I don't know where to begin. Apparently, either I've been backstabbed by my seniors or there is a big misunderstanding going on. Somehow, I'm damn pissed.

This is what happened...
Let's name my seniors Miss J and Miss Q. I totally remembered asking Miss J and Miss Q if they want to join my team to compete in quint fac because I still need another 3 more dancers. They smiled and told me. Oh no. No thanks because they are going to be year 3s and would not have the time. So, all along, i naively thought that my team is going to compete in quint fac.

Only when i spoke to the main organizer of the quint fac did i realize that there is another dance team from nursing. I was going wtf!!! So i went up to Miss S and asked her who is that team of dancers. My really super nice senior who have been helping and updating me since i don't know when.

Finally, Miss S got back to me and she said she thinks it is Miss J and Miss Q. I was lyk wtf and wth, like !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!. Seriously... Like damn cb!!!! I really felt like i've got like slapped on the face with a great red hand print on my cheek. Miss S said she would help me talk to them. She said that she agrees with Cecilia that we should not be competing with each other since we are from the same faculty and that they had their glory on stage and now it should be our turn. I totally agree with her. I know i screwed up big time last year and when i told that to Miss S, she told me, every year would be different. I agree. All i want is one more chance. This time, I'll make sure it is a really great performance put up whether or not we are champions. I mean like Miss J and Miss Q. You two had your glory on stage and i think it is time you retire and give your juniors a chance to have our glory. Like stop being so selfish for god's sake. So what if one of you can dance latin or the other can dance hip hop. I don't f***king care. I think if i train my dancers hard with hidayah's help. We are definitely better than you. Like honestly. I don't like to boast and neither do i boast. Sigh... To think that people i thought were friends, turned out to be total hypocrites. F***K!!!

Okay. Enough. Mmm... Got a short message for someone... Well, you should know that this is for you if you ever read this post of mine...
Please don't have silly thoughts of becoming a playboy because you are really a great boyfriend. Maybe she just does not know how to appreciate or cherish you but then again i feel that you should tell her honestly how you feel and work things out. I'm really glad to hear that you are finally willing to give in. The fact that you can learn to give in shows that you are changing and that you still love her. Whether it is true or not. This is how i feel. Pity, I'm not that girl who caused or witnessed your change. Nevertheless, I had my happy times with you. Honestly, if given a second chance, i would treat you the best and give you the best so that i would be the one who've changed you. Pity, you broke up too late with your ex-girlfriend. If i'm single now and not madly and deeply in love with my baby, i would definitely go and grab you. =)