Mid Year SUCKS!!!!

mid year really sucks yeah... bad bad results... i am really wondering if i would be able to make it for the a's. really shouldn't have went jc. well just not suitable for jc life. i really hate it... haiz... but what can i do... well i'm already in this. juz have to wait till a's that i can get out of it. oh my... please let the a's be over soon. if not i just can't imagine what i would be like. maybe commiting suicide, slashing my wrists, smoking like crazy again or lying in the mental hospital.... woo... all kinda probability. haiz... anyway... ms chiew wants to see my daddy and my mimi this week and soon... i'll be grounded... no tv, no going out, really afraid that they won't even allow me to go out and study... oh my... then no more sneaking out... boo hoo... ya... and you know what... whatever that they say or do... lyk saying that i'm lazy or not allowing me to watch tv or going out to study... you know what... it is not going to... coz i'll just feel even more stressed up... haiz... but you know what... they always say that they've been through all this... but what they never realised is that times have changed and so have everything... everything is evolving and the stress level we are facing now is much more then whatever they've said they've been through... and you know what.. they'll never understand. and so much for my mom saying that she is open -minded and understanding... sometimes i really feel like asking her not even to talk to my hand but my arse. she is so narrow -minded and to make things worse... she is not only a bimbo... not so much of bimbo... just a chinese idiom xiong ta wu nao can describe her so perfectly... she is always being a b***h... oh... maybe coz she doesn't have to be one... she is already one in nature. nothing but a stupid f**king b***h!!!! damn...

COME ON... I NEED A LIFE!!!!