SO LOST!!!!

ok... if you ask me now... i reaaly feel so lost. firstly... i really don't know if i am ready for my a's. seriously, i'm suppose to be working 3 times harder. but i feel like i am still slacking. you know i just can't get into the damn mood. it is like nat can study 5 topics in like one weekend. i'm like so behind my own schedule till i really don't know how i can catch up anymore. i really feel that i'm not cut up for jc life. and so... i really don't know what am i doing in a jc. super screwed. and you know what... I SERIOUSLY NEED A LIFE!!!! my goodness... i can't stand it anymore!!!!