GREAT DILEMMA

I think i've hurt yet another great guy. I'm really sorry... I really don't know why it keeps happening. But i can't control it and i really hate myself. Especially when he is the last person on earth that i would ever wanna hurt... I'm really scared that now things will change between us... Though he said that it won't but i have a feeling that there bound to be changes. By then... I know i will cry. I know i will feel really sad. But i guess there is nothing i can do... Sometimes i just wish that i'm single again but the fact is that i'm not and i have a great boyfriend now... That's why though i have good feelings for him. I know i can never allow myself to like him. And i really hope that he can really understand that a guy and gal can be close as best buddies and not only close as a couple. Let's just take a step at a time i guess... There is nothing else we can do now. I'm really hoping though we can be close like before... That's the reason why i was waiting for him to tell me and in fact i prayed hard that he won't say anything or maybe i was jst being over- sensitive... I just hope for the best...