I'm just such a b***h

i know that most prob this someone won't read this post. but i hope he does. i hope he will know that i'm referring to him. yeah... no one's perfect. i might be problematic. i guess i really am. coz i know the problem lies in me. i juz wanna tell him. i really hope you read this post. coz i really got no courage to tell you. even to sms you. so let's see if you're fated to read this... the problem lies in me... i love you too much i guess... that till now i feel that i'm like still searching for someone like you. though i know it is impossble to. i still miss you and i know in my heart i still feel something for you. when i knew you broke up with her somehow i felt happy. i love my bf a lot i know. but somehow.... i guess it's not more than how much i loved you... don't ask me to forget or whatever coz i can't. i tried to let go... but somehow it doesn't seem complete. a part of me still wish that we could be together again but the other part of me knows that it is impossible. i'm such a fool... i want you to find your happiness but i can't bring myself to intro anyone to you. some selfish part of me juz hope that you can find the right gal but i don't want to be the one who find that gal for you... i'm so sorry... don't feel guilty... perhaps feel happy and honoured bahz... haha...