LIFE'S SUCH A B****!!!!

i'm dying!!!! i'm like studying like a tortoise... one more week to prelim!!!! it is my last chance to try to pass my subjects by a's. oh no oh no... and i'm like really so damn stressed. being such a b**** to my dearest bf. i'm so sorry... i hate this!!!!

It is easy to find love but difficult to find true love. =)

i know this gonna sound mushy or cheesy or cliche or whatever you feel it is. but i juz have to say these... you know once i thought that i found my true love. i was so touched by him and i felt that mybe he was the one for me. and it is like when we broke up, i was devastated and i thought i could never find anyone else like him... well yup... of coz i can't find anyone like him. everyone's unique. but you know what people say about if you don't let go of the "old one" you can never find a "new one". well i guess it is true. i'm glad all that happened in the past happened. coz now i feel that i can appreciate my boyfriend more and cherish the relationship more. and yup... i guess i found a guy that is more suitable for me. it is like he loves me. but his love is generous. he doesn't try to possess me and gives me all the freedom that i need. i guess it is like a mutual feeling about me needing him and he needing me. it is like we are pillars of support for one another. and he really cares and loves me and he is really understanding. like putting up with my mood swings. i guess we love each other equally much and so it is like we won't feel tired of one another or like you know feel that either one is a burden to the other. and like yup. honesty really counts. ya... haha... coz we are really truthful to each other. yeah...

really.... i juz feel so fortunate to have him by my side. juz have to say this to all the gals out there... i'm sorry but just another great guy is taken... haha... juz joking... =)

juz wanna say this to whoever that reads this. well... don't cling on to a shattered relationship. be honest with youself... if you really think it is not going to work just move on. you know... there are really a lot of better choices out there. you'll never know. someone might just come along the way and you two might just suit each other so well and so unexpectedly. why cling onto something that is already not your's or is over right?

finally... i jus wanna say this... GOH KAY CHUAN!!! I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! and you know what. i really feel that it's my destiny to meet you and fall in love with you... it is amazing and i know it will be forever coz i can feel it everyday in my heart that this love is gonna be everlasting... =)

AH!!!!!

oh... went to cut my hair today. mmm... my head feels so much lighter now. but still... i wanna slp... mmm... guess i won't be able to sleep much till the a's. mmm... but you know what... i really love sleeping. haha... ok... ya... anyway PRELIMS ARE COMING!!!! AND I'M GOING TO DIE!!!! oh... but ok... ms chiew say i still got hope. but seriously... i don't think so. really have no confidence in myself. anyway... i would strive for my prelim... come on... wish me all the best... haha... =)

SO LOST!!!!

ok... if you ask me now... i reaaly feel so lost. firstly... i really don't know if i am ready for my a's. seriously, i'm suppose to be working 3 times harder. but i feel like i am still slacking. you know i just can't get into the damn mood. it is like nat can study 5 topics in like one weekend. i'm like so behind my own schedule till i really don't know how i can catch up anymore. i really feel that i'm not cut up for jc life. and so... i really don't know what am i doing in a jc. super screwed. and you know what... I SERIOUSLY NEED A LIFE!!!! my goodness... i can't stand it anymore!!!!

ARGH!!!!

ok... i know i shouldn't be blogging now. but i'm really pissed and i just need to say certain things...

i really cannot stand it anymore!!!! staying under the same roof with 2 f***king b***hes!!!! oh my... they are like one of a kind. both are just bloody hypocrites. so what now... they are fighting to see who will win and be the queen of hypocrites. i mean come on larhz... one just can't wait to get rid of my second sister from the house but still put on such a nice front and pretend to be so concerned bout her. the other... say... oh i won't use her toilet... no hot water... i don't like it... oh... then she places her stuff there and uses my second sister stuff... oh come on... so who are you both trying to bluff... people around or yourself??? now i really understand what it truly means by "birds of the same feathers flock together". they are really two of a kind. oh my... tt's why they just go so well together... but you know what... the sight of them just makes me wanna puke. stop taking my second sister as your entertainment. she had enough so had i. yeah... and i'm really pissed... so if you think this is harsh... i can be harsher... pleas know where's your limit... coz you won't want me to blow coz i'll make sure that if i blow... i'll make this place a living hell for both of you f***king b***hes...