Stress... =S

I am super stress about quint fac bash. We only have like 2 weeks more of practise. But the dance seems incomplete and we seem totally not ready to be on stage. I am leading the team. I know that there are a lot of people out there who are expecting this year's dance to be a good one. I want it to be the best i can put up. I don't want to disappoint anyone, especially my team. I don't knwo if i can do this. I am not confident that i can even put up my best on stage. Conventus was great. But last year my performance at quad fac bash was a real disaster. I really hope i can do this.

Anyway, this sat i am going for ensemble's audition. I hope i can make it through the audition. I really want to do this. I really want to know if i am cut out for ensemble. Then, i am satisfied. =)

It's been one year... =)

After seeing the photo album that emma posted on facebook, i realised that time really flies and the bananas have been together for a year!!! Wow... I'm so glad that i was in banana in pajamas when i entered nursing as a freshie. We really sticked together. Now, we are just like a family. I feel a little sad though. Ah xiang drifted apart from us. If not, we really are going to be a complete family. Still, i so glad to have the bananas and be a part of them. We started from being total strangers who somehow have certain unlikes about each other to finally accepting each other and becoming close friends. I really appreciate the bananas. I love you all babes and dude!!! =)

Also, it has been a year since me and Aslim met each other. Through this year, we gone through a lot. From strangers to lovers. We had a lot of happy times, sad times, fights and difficulties. There would still be many more obstacles ahead of us in the future. Honestly, i hope that we can continue to stick together and stay strong and overcome all obstacles. I really love him and i am glad to have met him. =)

Bad bad... =(

I am like damn stress now. First of all, i am suppose to ballot for my electives' tutorial timings but i don't what are the timings and when to ballot. I'm like going to have panic attack like so freaking soon. I feel so lost. I'm like taking both my electives all alone. Wow... How brave. The worst thing is i didn't check the module levels properly and i happily took one level 2 and another level 3 module. This means that i would be fighting against students who are majoring in either malay or japanese studies. My malay elective's class is really small which means moderation is much lesser. I'm so gonna die this semester. I really really hope i'll survive this semester coz i must at try to get all Bs for all my modules this semester. Oh wow... Bad bad bad shu hui... =(

Bad weekend...

Sigh. I had a bad and great weekend at the same time. Super pissed of with my parents and my sister. Long long story but then again... I feel that everything is blamed on me. Okay. They can say that i am selfish but i've sound out my unhappiness and tried making my point a lot of times. Yet, my points are not very much taken. They always say they try to understand me but honestly they have failed big time. Old fashioned should not be a reason. So what if you are old fashioned. Next year, i am turning 21. If you cannot even accept my lifestyle now, so what happens if i turn 21. It is time to let me go. About the ugly smses... Wow... Ugly as it can be. It takes 2 hands to clap. My sms was ugly because the first sms sent to me wasn't that nice either. You expect me to respect you just because you are my parents. NO... Not possible... Respect is earned. For people to respect you, you must respect the person. I'm not some lose gal with no freaking dignity okay.. If i really am, i'll most probably be clubbing every ladies night or weekend to hook up with some random guy. Aslim might not be of any relation to you but wake up... He is not a friend. HE IS A BOYFRIEND!!! SOMEONE I WANT AS MY HUSBAND. FYI... WE ARE PLANNING TO GET MARRIED AND ARE FREAKING SERIOUS ABOUT IT. Gosh... Distance?!!! How much a distance do we need to keep?!!! Have you even been in love?!!! Old fashioned?!!! Drastic actions?!!!! Come on... Talk to me about it man... I'm so god damn excited... Stop being so persistent and stubborn about things. It is time to think like a circle not a box. Gosh... I'm really going nuts!!!

Freedom writers

I was actually watching this movie called the freedom writers online. I really think it is damn good. The movie is a lot on racism in the US at a certain point of time where racism was so bad and people from different races try to mark out their own space as much as possible and kills or beats up whoever that invades their space. This teacher who was new to this particular high school that was integrated in the sense of races actually tried to change the students perception of the racism thingy. She went through all oughts to show them that though they have different stories, backgrounds and races, they are still similar in ways. She also made them realise that there are many other people out there who had went through even more sufferings than them due to racism. This movie is actually based on a real story. In the midst of gaining their trust and to get to know them better, she actually got them each to write a journal. Their journals were put together and published as this book called the freedom writers. This book was published in 1999 if i didn't remember wrongly. Now, i really look forward to reading this book since the movie is so inspiring. I think whoever who read this post should go watch this movie. It is truely inspiring and motivating. I think it really teaches people to pick up their courage, step out of their comfort zones to find a new zone and challenge themselves to make a change or a turn in their lives. It also shows you that dreams do come true and somewhere out there, there is a place for everyone and that if you work hard to realize your dreams, someone out there sees you even if you feel that no one gives a damn about you and that dreams do come true. =)