Guilty...

I really didn't mean to make Tiffany feel betrayed. Honestly, i really feel very bad but it is really for the good of the dance team to have positive competition. I really feel that i took a very wrong approach. It is like bringing someone so high and just dropping her. I felt like that before and i know the feeling totally sucks. However, as much as i hate having to pick my dancers, I have too many dancers and it is impossible not to choose. Though i have in mind who exactly i want on my team, i have to give hidayah the right to pick. Eventually, she is the main choreographer. Nevertheless, i recognise tiffany's contribution. I hope she does not feel that i got hidayah and i don't need her anymore. I still appreciate her opinions and what she did. All the more, i still welcome and hope to hear her comments. I'm not that good and neither is hidayah. I just really hope tiffany understands.

Wonderful weekends comes with a price...

Well, I had a wonderful weekend staying over at my baby's house. It was so nice. Hanging out late with my baby. Hehez... Though the first night he made me so disappointed. How smart of him to suggest having a movie marathon. In the end, I was the only one watching and he was sleeping on the sofa. Sighs... But the second night was fun. We went out bowling with his family. Woo hoo... Seems like my bowling skills got worse while my baby's bowling skills improved. It was really fun though. After that, we went to seven eleven to buy like 4 cans of 500ml heineken and cup noodles and we sat down somewhere to eat and drink and talk. It was really nice. Actually it is a pity we didn't manage to go to st james instead. It was our initial idea but since shafiq and co couldn't get in coz they don't meet the profile. F***ked up bouncers. Like open your eyes and see ok... Malays are not the ones who start the fights most of the time ok... Is dee chinese... Like duh... Coz these chinese guys always think they are freaking good looking that they can look at other gals but other guys cannot look or talk to their girls... Like wtf... Profile... Like tell me what is the profile... If st james is so against Malays, so why are there so many Malay bouncers in da club... Boo!!!

So anyway, finished with the wonderful weekends. Here comes the price... I know my parents are super fed up with me staying over for 2 nights since I told them that I'm only gonna stay over one night but end up staying over for 2. I know that they are sick and tired of scolding me and they do no know what else to say. That's why... Silent treatment. But then again, it does not really matter to me if they still don't get the fact that I really don't like that curfew thingy and the fact that i love night life and i just cannot stay at home coz i find it so boring. So... I guess these are things that they can never accept. But then again... Eventually i do know what i am doing and that this would eventually be my life. So... I've got nothing else to say...

I miss my baby so much anyway... Haha... Wish i was in town with him now... =)

Anger Disappointment...

Well... I don't know where to begin. Apparently, either I've been backstabbed by my seniors or there is a big misunderstanding going on. Somehow, I'm damn pissed.

This is what happened...
Let's name my seniors Miss J and Miss Q. I totally remembered asking Miss J and Miss Q if they want to join my team to compete in quint fac because I still need another 3 more dancers. They smiled and told me. Oh no. No thanks because they are going to be year 3s and would not have the time. So, all along, i naively thought that my team is going to compete in quint fac.

Only when i spoke to the main organizer of the quint fac did i realize that there is another dance team from nursing. I was going wtf!!! So i went up to Miss S and asked her who is that team of dancers. My really super nice senior who have been helping and updating me since i don't know when.

Finally, Miss S got back to me and she said she thinks it is Miss J and Miss Q. I was lyk wtf and wth, like !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!. Seriously... Like damn cb!!!! I really felt like i've got like slapped on the face with a great red hand print on my cheek. Miss S said she would help me talk to them. She said that she agrees with Cecilia that we should not be competing with each other since we are from the same faculty and that they had their glory on stage and now it should be our turn. I totally agree with her. I know i screwed up big time last year and when i told that to Miss S, she told me, every year would be different. I agree. All i want is one more chance. This time, I'll make sure it is a really great performance put up whether or not we are champions. I mean like Miss J and Miss Q. You two had your glory on stage and i think it is time you retire and give your juniors a chance to have our glory. Like stop being so selfish for god's sake. So what if one of you can dance latin or the other can dance hip hop. I don't f***king care. I think if i train my dancers hard with hidayah's help. We are definitely better than you. Like honestly. I don't like to boast and neither do i boast. Sigh... To think that people i thought were friends, turned out to be total hypocrites. F***K!!!

Okay. Enough. Mmm... Got a short message for someone... Well, you should know that this is for you if you ever read this post of mine...
Please don't have silly thoughts of becoming a playboy because you are really a great boyfriend. Maybe she just does not know how to appreciate or cherish you but then again i feel that you should tell her honestly how you feel and work things out. I'm really glad to hear that you are finally willing to give in. The fact that you can learn to give in shows that you are changing and that you still love her. Whether it is true or not. This is how i feel. Pity, I'm not that girl who caused or witnessed your change. Nevertheless, I had my happy times with you. Honestly, if given a second chance, i would treat you the best and give you the best so that i would be the one who've changed you. Pity, you broke up too late with your ex-girlfriend. If i'm single now and not madly and deeply in love with my baby, i would definitely go and grab you. =)

Updates updates...

Wow... Been a super long time since my last post. Oh well. My blog seems super stagnant. Been too busy after my exams. My attachments, then FOC camp, then now dance dance dance and my boyfriend.

I don't know where to start. Let's see... From my birthday then. My very sweet Mr Oink Oink brought me to this super nice buffet dinner. It is actually a cruise thingy. So it was like eating dinner on this cruise that tours the singapore seas and then after that we went up to the deck of the cruise to chill. So nice!!! To me, the dinner was super ex. I really did enjoy myself though. Thank you baby!!! I love you so much.

Well, then came my camp. Haha... Was super fun. I did get quite dirty and very black. But oh well... My tan is fading. So fast!!! haha... I just love being tan. Makes me feel good. I don't know why. Maybe i'm just crazy. When other gals out there trying to be as fair as possible, i want to be as tan as possible. Haha... Oh... And i had a lot of fun staying overnight at Mr Oink Oink's house the first 2 days. And i celebrated my birthday (exact date) with him. Woo hoo... That was nice. Then on 1st july, i manage to get one night out of camp with a few of my dearest girlfriends olive, tiffany and hidayah to go clubbing at powerhouse. Been a super long time since i last clubbed with my girlfriends only. And i really appreciate it baby... =)

Then moving on in my very busy life, i have to dance for conventus and quint fac. And i'm really going crazy over these 2 dances. Man... First time i'm like stress over dance. Even in jc when i was training for my syf, i never felt this stress. Perhaps it is because i am in charge and apart from having fun, i feel that i still have to do a good job and present well to all of those who expect us to do well. This... I really want to say... THANK YOU HIDAYAH!!! I couldn't have done the conventus, quint fac and mass dance without you. I love you babe... Thank you just doesn't seem to be enough to express my gratitude. Let's jia you for bash and bring zouk down... haha... =)