Going to uni!!!!

i'm going into uni lerx. so excited. but the sad thing is i can only go back to work in december. i'll like miss my job so much. and i'll miss everyone at taka. pple!!!! you all gotta await my return ya... hehez... i'll miss my lao gong (rahmat), auntie cindy, mee lang, jayne, ah fa, lawrence and everyone else... most importantly... i'll miss doreen and adlina like crazy... especially adlina... u rock like crazy bitch!!!! =P i'll miss my night life too... going to youth park for suppers... ya... haiz... but i'll be back. hehez...

anyway, now i've got a banana family... so nice... i love them all. and honestly i'm looking forward to uni life. so ironic. can't bear to leave my working life but yet can't wait to embark on my uni life. but well... life is always so contradicting. anyway... i'll be back to work in dec... so i'll look forward to it... hehez...

mmm... yeah. someone is complaining that i never blog again. not so free larhz!!! haha...
oh yeah... anyway... to me... quite a lot of things happened recently. juz been crying quite a lot recently... my eyes keep getting swollen!!! argh!!!! plus i juz got my psp!!!! yay!!! obviously, i would keep playing. making things even worse for my eyes... i'm sorry eyes!!!! haha... i'll try controlling myself ya...

anyway... i feel like saying this to that very someone... well think you should know it is you if u read. don't get hurt arhz... juz really want you to know this... here goes...

well... if you really love someone... you should just let the person go. let the person be free if you know you can't hold on to him or her. i'm sorry if whatever i said or wrote or smsed or did gave you false hopes. i really am sorry. but you gotta know that if you picked it up whether a not aware or unaware. you should know that you should need to let it down eventually... well... i don't know if you'll ever agree... but to me, to let go is not to forget but to remember and pick up the pieces and move on... =)

ya... same applies to me... think it is time to pick up the pieces and move on... it is time that i let go of a relationship... shu hui can do it!!! jia you!!!

haha... maybe it is irritating to always be reading lyrics on my blog but you gotta read this one... well to me, it is very meaningful... =)

Saving jane - Come down to me

Words fall out of my mouth
And I can't seem to trace what I'm saying
Everybody wants your time
I'm just dreaming out loud
I can't have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine

Tripping up on my tongue
It's all over my face and I'm racing
Gotta get away from you
Burning all the way home
Try to put it to bed but it chases
Every little thing I do

When light falls on your face
Don't let it change you
When the stars get in your eyes
Don't let them blind you

You're beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be
Come down to me

Spell it out in a song
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
I'm singing every word for you
Here i'm thinking i'm sly
Then you're catching my eye , and just maybe
You're thinking what I'm thinking too

When you see it on my face
Don't let it shake you
I know better than to try and
Take you with me

sad but nice... =)

Toni Braxton Lyrics - Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

(chorus)
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

(Chorus)

Ohh, oh
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
(rpt Chorus except last line)

Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on

my heart is breaking. but u'll never feel it.
i'm crying. but u'll never see my tears.
i'm smiling. but my heart is breaking.
i'm so afraid. coz i know that one day you will leave me and there is nothing i can do bout it.
i don't expect much from you. neither do i have the right to. but still it hurts when you seem not to care anymore.
i really don't know what to do to show you how i feel. neither do i have the courage to tell you...