schooling partying clubbing having fun

life is like so hectic and crazy now. hanging out with syikin and adlina and doreen and my taka peeps, schooling and clubbing. haha... haven't even started studying yet. this seems so crazy. but i realise that it is really competitive. it is so crazy. my fellow nurses to be r already all mugging like crazy. i'm like wth... haha... relac people... haha... chill... must learn how to haf fun oso mahz... juz like me. heh...

i'm like clubbing a little more now... going so broke. think i'm going crazy... haha... but i'm enjoying every second of my life doing crazy things!!!

SAVE ME!!!

ewww... uni sucks for one reason. we have to get everything through mails and the net. i seriously hate sitting in front of the com to download my references and notes and the announcements. and i'm seriously still very confused on how to use the references and to the tutorial thingy. but eventually everyone's like that i guess. haha... just have to get used to it.

starting to feel a little stress lerx. i'm so afraid i can't catch up. i'm bad at reading references and stuff. i'm dumb. i admit. doesn't mean going into uni means i'm smart alright. but i still love my course. coz i have fun friends. super fun and cool lab sessions like seeing rotting corspe. haha... it's true. and having to fail what patients really feel. like being blind-folded and led by my friends and vice versa to feel what it is like to be nursing a visually impaired person and being a visually impaired patient. super cool feeling. and now i really realise that nursing really needs passion. it is only that passion that you feel for your job that you will have responsibilities for it. and being a nurse you really need to be super responsible coz the patients are really dependent on you. hehez... i really really love my course now and i can't wait for further progression. really really looking forward to my attachments... wee!!!! =)

What's wrong with taking up nursing??? With or without support... I'm still gonna work hard to be a nurse. It is true. Nurses need to do a lot of shit work. As in literally shit work. But it is a noble profession. People who look at nurses and go... "Oh... You are just a nurse... " You people can just go back and re- think your definition of a nurse. It takes a lot of courage to be a nurse. Who is brave enough to face life and death everyday and do shit work everyday??? Can you??? If you can't then please appreciate nurses. Though it is a dirty, tough and challenging job, it is an honour and a very satisfying career. By seeing life and death and being faced with unexpected things that might happen everyday, it makes someone grow and nurture. It makes someone emotionally stronger. Nursing is a very meaningful and satisfying profession. I guess no matter how much i might need to sacrifice... I'll never regret taking this path... =)

mmm... so bored at home!!! i really miss taka lyk crazy!!! i miss everyone there!!! i dunno if i will lyk my life now... but i really miss my working life... really can't wait to go back in dec... hopefully!!!! =)

anyway... i'm lyk going to let go of him... but honestly it is difficult to... i feel sad if i dun contact him but if i contact him and he is cold towards me i feel sad too. ya... i'm lyk in such a dilemma... i miss him...